In Their Own Words – Counting to 100
This “In Their Own Words” is written by Cheairs Frank Graves, a Charlottesville, Va. mother of two. Her son has autism.
“Counted to 100 by himself in front of the entire class during circle time!” That is what his school note said. I looked at the note in disbelief―my little Margaret-Ann jumping up and down next to me- voice getting louder and louder that she needs a snack. I read the note again. I swell with pride and disbelief. “Mommy, mommy, I am hungry.” Snapped back to the present I take my daughter’s hand and we head to the kitchen to get something to eat. I get my daughter her favorite snack― goldfish with apple juice and I smile.
If someone had ever told when my son was first diagnosed with autism at the age of two that he would one day stand in front of his kindergarten classroom and count to 100― I would have thought they were crazy. My two year old could not make the first utterance of any words, could not play with any toy appropriately, and would not respond to his name when I called to him. What on earth would make me think that he would one day be able to count to that magical number of 100?
Well, let me tell you my son has been working! And when I am feeling hopeless about the progress he is making -he shows me the fight and determination that he has in him to move forward. I think a little part of him is grinning inside just saying, “Mommy just you wait-when I am ready I am going to show what I can do.” I think he is saying, “Mommy you need to be patient-you need to wait. I can do so many things it just takes me longer, but just when you least expect it I am going to show you my stuff.” Well, show me his stuff is exactly what he did on that sunny Monday at school.
I can just see him as his teacher asks him if he wants to count today. I can see him bright eyed say, “Yes, Catherine!” and jump to the front of the circle and begin to count…..1,2,3,4,5 I can see the determination in his face as he pauses and thinks of the next number. I can see his classmates looking wide eyed in pure amazement as he counts higher and higher. I can see his teachers holding their breath and feel their hearts pounding with unsure excitement not knowing how high he will count. I can see everyone’s anticipation―getting ready to clap because he has made it to 50. Then I can feel the whirl of energy as he continues 51, 52, 53, 54. I can see his fellow kindergartners giving him the thumbs up as he reaches 71, 72, 73, 74, 75. Then I can feel the confidence in his words the determination that my little guy is going to count all the way to 100. I can hear his little monotone voice grow strong with every number 91, 92, 93,94, 95, 96, 97―pure concentration 98,99―He is going to do it!!! With a huge smile and a look of unimaginable pride 100!!!! I can feel the claps and cheers for my son in my bones. I can feel the love that surrounds him from his teachers and classmates in my heart. I can see the huge smile of pride on his face!
Now I was not there on this most special Monday morning at Hollymead Elementary School, but as my friend Catherine who is one of the teacher’s in the class recounts the event to me on the phone that night I can see it all―the amazing triumphant of it all! I get off the phone and as I sit in bed with my husband and tell him the whole story. He does not have to say anything. The tears that fill his eyes say it all.
And now my son sound asleep upstairs. I can hear the words coming from his sweet head-“Mommy you need to be patient you need to wait. Just give me a little time” I put my head on my pillow and I close my eyes. “Ok, Dawson I hear you. I am trying. Patients and waiting―I got it. I am working on it I am working hard just like you……oh, how I love you my sweet boy―my sweet counting to 100 little boy!”
“In Their Own Words” is a series within the Autism Speaks blog which shares the voices of people who have autism, as well as their loved ones. If you have a story you wish to share about your personal experience with autism, please send it to firstname.lastname@example.org. Autism Speaks reserves the right to edit contributions for space, style and content. Because of the volume of submissions, not all can be published on the site.